First Trimester Round Up

For anyone who may be following this blog and not my family blog, SURPRISE! Baby #4 is on their way and expected in early/mid January:)

(baby bump at 9 weeks)

Yesterday I hit the 12 week mark, and boy I am glad to be done with the first trimester! I keep starting blog posts and then not completing them, or not being happy with the way they turn out. My thoughts and experiences are kind of all over the place, and I usually prefer things to be a little more organized when I share. I do want to blog about my experiences and feelings, even if they aren't entertaining for everyone to read and I figure I must start somewhere!  Here is a round up of sorts from my first trimester for those who are interested, and for myself obviously:)

Charting:

I found out super early again that I was pregnant thanks to charting. I think I was like 3.5 weeks! Usually you can't get a positive at that point, but the pale line was there. We got pregnant the first time I ovulated after Dallin weaned, which was quite a surprise. I don't get a period when I'm nursing. I had one period a few months after he stopped breastfeeding, and here we are again. I'm not complaining though! Just shocked is all. This baby was meant to come sooner then we had expected for whatever reason:) Another blessing of charting was having a better "guess" date for when this baby would arrive. I'm not a 14 day ovulater, like they assume all women are. I ovulate on day 20 regularly, and so my due date is 6 days later then if I just went off of my LMP. So when I give my LMP I just add  6 days to it. What a blessing to know this information! A week makes a huge difference, especially when you are at the end of your pregnancy. When I went in to my midwives office at 8 weeks 2 days (according to charting) I had an ultrasound which put baby at exactly 8 weeks 2 days. So if all else fails, thank goodness for early first trimester ultrasounds for more accurate due dates:)

Mental Health:

I had some major anxiety issues when I was 4-5 weeks along. Heart pounding, feeling like something horrible was going to happen at any second anxiety. I couldn't sleep well, and I ended up having a nervous break down of sorts 4 days in. I think I had a lot of unresolved issues and concerns with this pregnancy and birth that I didn't realize, and that combined with early pregnancy hormones can be scary! I ended up going in to see my midwives and felt a lot of relief after speaking with them and my husband. I was really worried that I was going to have severe anxiety my whole pregnancy (due to a blog story I read) and it was such a blessing when it went away. I wanted to share because maybe one day a friend or family member will experience something similiar, and it would be good to know that not everyone suffers through it the whole 9 months!

Physical Health:

I was eating the healthiest I had ever eaten, the months leading up to my pregnancy. Lots of whole foods, and very little processed stuff. I read the book "In Defense of Food," and tried to follow the advice as realistically as possible. I was working out at the gym a few times a week, and I felt pretty healthy. Unfortunately, once I hit 6 weeks my senses went crazy and I could no longer palate the meals that I had loved months before. All day morning sickness/nausea kicked in, and I had to start eating every 2 hours to keep it at bay, which took time to get use to.  Weeks 6-8 were the worst of the first trimester. Nothing sounded good, and yet I HAD to eat every 2 hours if I wanted to feel anything close to "good." I found out by accident that my prenatals and supplements were making me really sick, and immediately stopped taking them. I tried a whole food based prenatal instead, but it made me dry heave for 2 hours. I tried chewable childrens vitamins, but they gave me a stomach ache too. My body wanted nothing to do with vitamins of any sort, and so I listened to it. I had lost 4 pounds within a 2 week span due to not being able to eat enough food and feeling awful, and taking prenatals was not worth that in my opinion. My midwife said I could take a short break from prenatals, and that it was more important for me to be able to eat enough food. In the last week the nausea has subsided, and now I just get stomach aches a couple times a day. I feel SO much better, and I am so grateful! I haven't been able to work out very much, but I plan to start again now that I am feeling well. I still can't fathom eating a green vegetable (other then lettuce), but I hope that will go away soon too. I haven't gained any weight, but I think part of it is because I lost some weight earlier, and lost some muscle from not being able to work out. I look very pregnant already, and I'm sure the scale will reflect that soon.

Birth Plans/Thoughts:

Oh mercy. I set myself up for failure early in this pregnancy. By that I mean that once I found out I was pregnant, I just assumed that I would feel awesome about having a homebirth. It's been a dream of mine to have a homebirth, and well I just wanted it to be an automatic this time. So I waited for that warm, fuzzy feeling, you get when something is so right, and I did so without any preparation or real searching or studying. I had not interviewed a homebirth provider or anything, I just wanted Heavenly Father to just "give me" this one. Ha! Just "lay it on me," and skip all that busy work. Right? Well I waited for that warm feeling.....and lo and behold, it never came. I felt so confused and sad, lost you could say. Yet, I can look back and say "you silly girl! what were you thinking?" Eventually my brain began to work again, and I stopped obsessing with needing to know RIGHT NOW whether a homebirth was right or not. It was still on my mind, but I had to stop freaking out that I didn't know whether it was right or not. I have my part to fulfill when it comes to searching, pondering and praying, and Heavenly Father always upholds His part. I also realize that I need to humble myself, and be ok with going to the hospital, if that is what feels right. Dallin's birth helped me get over my fear of being in a hospital, and while I would prefer to be home, I know I could do it in a hospital again if necessary. I am not anti-hospital at all, I just think how nice would it be to have this baby in our home, in the sacred space that feels so safe and peaceful.  How nice to not be removed abruptly during intense labor, fly in a car half way across town, give everyone in the hospital a show, and worry about the possibility of a baby being born in the car, or on the way to the delivery room, or at home without a medical provider present?  I came across homebirth kits online, when checking out some homebirth providers, and I swooned. I loved how simple they were and how little is needed for birth in most cases. The simplicity of it all attracts me. If I can find a competent provider that will assist me in a homebirth, and Heavenly Father confirms to me that it is right, I will do it. If I cannot, I will stay with the Bethany Midwives, as I feel a genuine support from them, am confident in their abilities and love the ones I've gotten to know so far. Right now I have two midwives to interview. They are pretty much my only options at this point when it comes to a homebirth (because of AZ laws) and so I have some homework to do:)

And there you have it, 12 weeks in a nutshell!