Thursday, July 5, 2012

Wait For It

I've noticed that every time I want to post something on here, it usually has to do with something spiritual. Pregnancy and birth can be such a spiritual journey, and so I'll continue to share that part of my experiences as well. As you can tell from my last post, patience has been hard to come by lately. I opened up the Ensign the other day, which is our church magazine that comes once a month, and as usual there was a message waiting for me.  The article was titled "Waiting on the Lord, Renewing Our Strength."

In regards to pregnancy and birth there are definitely times of waiting.  Waiting to become pregnant, waiting to figure things out, or find answers regarding the pregnancy and birth, and ultimately waiting for the baby to make their debut. We are waiting for things to happen at different times throughout life, whether they are birth related or not.  It's a short article, and a good one, so I figured I'd just share the whole thing. I underlined some parts that were particularly helpful in my situation:)

"Most everyone has experienced anxiety or anticipation while waiting for something. As a single adult, I certainly have learned what it means to wait. For this reason Isaiah 40:31 has come to have special meaning for me: “But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint” (emphasis added). Many of us dread waiting, but through the prophet Isaiah, the Lord tells us that waiting can actually be a good thing.

In the past I’ve thought of waiting as wasted time, such as when I wait for a plane to take off or wait in line at the grocery store. This kind of waiting requires little action on our part; it’s mostly a matter of biding our time. This type of waiting is also usually paired with frustration and impatience. Consider how you feel when someone you are waiting for is late. By the time the person arrives, you may be so upset that you had to wait that you don’t appreciate the fulfillment of your anticipation.
Of course, this is not the kind of waiting that Isaiah said could “renew [our] strength.” On the contrary, impatient waiting tends to leave us physically and emotionally exhausted. I have been guilty of this kind of waiting too often.

So what kind of waiting was Isaiah describing? The Hebrew word translated as wait also means “hope for” and “anticipate” (Isaiah 40:31, footnote a). To add my own interpretation, I like to think of waiting in terms of a waiter at a restaurant. In this sense, to wait on someone is to serve that person. A good waiter—or server—gives his or her customers excellent care and attention by checking in often, learning their desires, and attending to them. When I adopt this attitude toward the Lord, it adds purpose to the time I spend awaiting a particular blessing. In fact, time seems to pass more quickly when I am diligently working to serve God. Ironically enough, it’s through this work that I “renew [my] strength.”

The same amount of time will pass whether I am squandering it in anger and impatience or using it to serve the Lord and His children. Choosing to “wait upon the Lord”—or viewed another way, to serve Him—yields far more satisfying results. This choice also helps me remember that because Heavenly Father’s greatest desire is to bless His children with what will ultimately help us be happy, He will not only give me what I need, He’ll also give it at the time that is best for me.
Shifting my attitude from one of “just waiting” to “waiting upon the Lord” has shown me that waiting can be a good thing after all. This perspective has opened my eyes to the many gifts Heavenly Father has given me. Most of all, it has given my life renewed strength, purpose, and meaning."

   Looking back at my last pregnancy, I realize that there was a good amount of waiting before I came to my ultimate decision on a provider and birth place. I started off with a DO at 9 weeks, changed to a midwife group at 27 weeks, interviewed a homebirth midwife shortly after, and then finally felt like I had a sure answer on what was best for that birth. Things would have turned out so differently if I would have given up on interviewing and searching past 9 weeks. What a blessing it was to have all that time to really ponder and know what was best. 

1 comment:

  1. you are so proactive in your efforts! it's very motivating.

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